I think I shall just “let go” of the idea that I’ll ever be a great or maybe even good blogger. I’m taking the pressure off…right here…right now.
Just going to enjoy my beautiful days and share beautiful things with you.
Love to you.
And lots of hugs.
What great thing have I learned today? In another life I may have been an organized martha stewart type…but not in this one.
I smile as I breathe. Feels good to be me – just me. Especially feels good to really discover just who “ME” is. I’m actually neater than I thought I was. I’ve had moments of astonishing mind blowing beauty in the past, like when I was pregnant with Little Miss ASIJ. I’m not stupid AT ALL, but have had to learn to write things down in my CAN (Catch All Notebook) because I’m really forgetful these days. So much about me I’m just discovering. Wow…I’ve wasted a lot of time trying to be someone I “thought” I should be.
Me as a mother…Me as a wife. Ok so I’ll never write any great books or stories about “The Good Mother” or “The Good Wife”. But I love my family more than I ever thought possible. And I was born with momma bear claws…and they WILL come out if they are needed to protect the ASIJ clan.
This is my life.
Every day of it.
Every moment of it.
Mr. ASIJ and Little Miss ASIJ. There goes my heart and soul. There goes my life.
Sweet Darkness by David Whyte
When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.
When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.
Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.
There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.
The dark will be your womb
The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.
You must learn one thing.
The world was made to be free in.
Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.
Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive
is too small for you.